Anurag Shrivastava 5:25 PM
But then the night draws near and I start thinking, what is that which I fear the most. There is this feeling that keep nagging somewhere in the heart. That feeling of another day gone by.
This is not the fear of death. This is not the fear of growing old. This is the fear of loosing out on time. This is the fear of not having enough experiences in life to feel good about. This is about not having made enough mistakes in life to feel healed of, from the corrective paths you take. It’s the fear of knowing exactly how the next day looks like.
The realization that you need to be excited about something which will happen the next day, something which you are not aware of. You may meet someone you have never met before, you may read a new book, you may have a dialogue on atheism with another enlightened soul, or you may end up writing a note to the you 30 years from now. That is what makes life a journey to cherish.
The desire to do things which the world may not agree to, actions that do not adhere to the so called norms of the society, is something that must drive men and women to stretch their goals, their limits and their desires to experience. What these experiences would bring would define the personalities that we create for ourselves.
When I look back at myself, I should not feel sorry of the fact that I did not write this page, however, trivial this may sound. I should not have the regret that I did not fall. I should not have the regret that I did not experiment. I should not have the regret that I could not breathe the energy that was around, rather I survived merely on the air that was around.
- - Ashk